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lilly

Haven't been formally diagnosed, but feeling so miserable
It's been 3 weeks since I've had my baby. I love her and don't have thoughts about harming her, but I don't necessarily feel a connection. I feel like I don't really matter and so long as there was someone doing what I do, it would be ok. I feel so lonely and I don't know why. I have great familial support and an amazing fiancé that goes above and beyond to help me. I still feel lonely and like I can't talk about how I feel without being judged. I went from not eating because I'd be so busy I'd forget to just not wanting to eat. This feeling comes in waves. I'll be great for a day or two and then spiral. I don't have a PCP and don't really know who to reach out to. I took a PPD screening test the hospital sent me and based on that I probably do have PPD. I just don't know what to do.