You're looking for the explanation, the loophole, the bright twist in the dark tale that reverses your story's course. But it won't reverse-for me or for you or for anyone who has ever been wronged, which is everyone. Allow your acceptance of the universality of suffering to be a transformative experience. You do that by simply looking at what pains you squarely in the face and then moving on. You don't have to move fast or far. You can go just an inch, you can mark your progress breath by breath. - Cheryl Strayed
I miss him
How do you handle still missing your SO when they left and caused so much pain? I am seriously just angry at myself for this. He caused so much pain. I miss my life and the future I believed I saw so much. I miss talking to my best friend and our inside jokes. I told him outright I was going to be pulling back from texting (I had been to send him photos of our daughter) and I miss even doing that. It just makes me feel like a doormat. I know getting to know other people will help but it just feels so impossible. Meetup just plain ****s around here. I’m not traveling an hour each way on ****ty transit to exhaust myself staying out late with strangers I don’t know just to drag myself back home and wake up after a short sleep. I wish I could talk and joke around with him like I used to but I can’t and it just hurts. And I hate that I want to. What do you guys do when that feeling hits?
by sally at 2018-11-19T17:05:40