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Haven't been formally diagnosed, but feeling so miserable
It's been 3 weeks since I've had my baby. I love her and don't have thoughts about harming her, but I don't necessarily feel a connection. I feel like I don't really matter and so long as there was someone doing what I do, it would be ok. I feel so lonely and I don't know why. I have great familial support and an amazing fiancé that goes above and beyond to help me. I still feel lonely and like I can't talk about how I feel without being judged. I went from not eating because I'd be so busy I'd forget to just not wanting to eat. This feeling comes in waves. I'll be great for a day or two and then spiral. I don't have a PCP and don't really know who to reach out to. I took a PPD screening test the hospital sent me and based on that I probably do have PPD. I just don't know what to do.
by lilly at 2018-11-19T18:28:36
Talk to your partner and/or your supportive family and say exactly what you’ve said above. Then together go to the doctor. PPD hit me like a ton of bricks and I was sure it was just the baby blues and I’d feel better. But my husband insisted there was something wrong with me. He told the doctor I wasn’t me anymore. The doctor made me feel a lot better about it because she was able to explain to both of us how normal it was that this was happening. She explained how he could help me, how she could help me and how I would get better. I’m currently on antidepressants and I’m amazed at how much they’ve improved my life. I’m still dealing with it and still sort of “lose it” on some days. At least I’m not waking up and literally wanting to cry alone in a corner all day. All I’m saying is you are not alone - both in the small picture - your supportive family- and the bigger picture - all the women out there with PPD right now who feel the same way you do. Just don’t forget: you are AMAZING - you’ve just grown and given birth to a human! That’s a serious accomplishment and now you’re healing from it. Time heal all wounds Sending my love your way Mama!
by jessica at 2018-11-19T18:29:29
It might be PPD but it also could be the baby blues still. I felt just as you did in the beginning- I think a lot of it is sleep deprivation and hormones, and then of course the “it could be anyone taking care of LO” is basically true in the beginning. I started feeling better right around 3/4 weeks.
by lilly at 2018-11-19T18:29:16
All I can say is that we should take it day by day,.... its great that your family is supportive. Take appointment from a professional. Know that you are not alone... This fear of being judged is so real but don't let it get in your way of getting better.... wish you the best.
by chris at 2018-11-19T18:29:07